Entries by Dawn Lhamo

Easy Homemade Naturally Sweetened Granola

Easy Homemade Naturally Sweetened Granola This easy to make healthy granola recipe is naturally, lightly sweetened with coconut sugar or granulated monkfruit. It’s made with oats, coconut oil or vegan butter and you can add your choice of nuts and fruit. This one is a Chai-Almond but you can add almost anything. Go wild~ try […]

A Life Offered For Likes

it doesn’t matter how many e-fans we have collected as mock love to offer daily praise and fawn over our technicolor virtues amazing! amazing! so holy, so bright! click 575 post likes now I really matter and can sleep well stomach thanksgiving full with ego stuffing confirmed satisfied but the one person we value most […]

The Bridges of Saguache County

look back and ask why we committed to something or someone and if it was to hide nestle in the warm shoulder of faux security but does not serve our highest truth our hearts loud calling then to honor ourselves we must I must let it go it’s unbearable to offer this one life to […]

See me beautiful

See me beautiful Look for the best in me It’s what I really am And all I want to be It may take some time It may be hard to find But see me beautiful   See me beautiful Each and every day Could you take a chance Could you find a way To see […]

Thanks for Giving

Dearest Mother~ I can’t see you today and I miss you so even though being around you is and was always about you I never really existed or mattered what deep trauma breaks the soul to craft such self obsession to you my role was only to cajole compliment never ever criticize lest we evoke […]

Dawn Boiani-Sandberg relays dharma insights from interviews with Tsoknyi & Thrangu Rinpoche

Last year, I met with the number of noted Buddhist teachers here in Crestone Colorado, including Tsoknyi Rinpoche and Thrangu Rinpoche about the future of our Dharma practice after some of the concerns of the #metoo movement and many scandals were exposed. We had heartfelt, forthright discussions concerning misconduct, abuse, authoritarian power, cults and cult-think […]

Apple Custard Puff Pastry

Easy, Healthy Apple Custard Puff Pastry, Ready in 1 hour! Ingredients: 1 ½ lb frozen puff pastry thawed (2 sheets) 1/3 cup brown sugar/honey/ brown rice syrup 1 T sugar or granulated monkfruit sugar ½ tsp cinnamon 3 large apples washed and unpeeled thinly sliced 1/3 cup sliced almonds 1 organic egg ½ tsp powdered […]

the sky’s warm tears

early morning raindrops patter the metal roof the world is still but stirs underneath overcast mist the sun obscured and yet a small masked chickadee chips alone from a distant tree greeting a new grey dawn

One Life~ Real Love

Meet me in the realm of truth, the vastness of the shaman. The stars and sky of manifestation in-between nihilism and religion’s false promise of some continuity of the self. We awaken from the opiate of the masses. In our raw, fragile impermanence we take nothing for granted we make every single precious passing moment […]

When Women Were Birds~ Terry Tempest Williams

Once upon a time, when women were birds, there was the simple understanding that to sing at dawn and to sing at dusk was to heal the world through joy. The birds still remember what we have forgotten, that the world is meant to be celebrated. ~Terry Tempest Williams Photograph: Viola Loretti

if i

if i were beautiful enough would you love me if i were bright enough would you love me if i impressed you with my knowledge of 18th century literature poetry high ethnic and renaissance art sophisticated music the elucidation of doctrine would you some profoundly striking quote some money to the right politicians some advocate […]

Refuge in the Real

What spirit what friend could hold my heart that I could trust to never harm my body my feelings my mind a panacea of gentleness real love without pride with whom if there is inevitable hurt we learn and this prompts us to grow even further completely. I trust you am bound to you in […]

In the Buddha, Dharma and Sangha…

There is only one real hope now to be liberated from our suffering, samsara. That is to be honest about what we have done, feel regret and make real personal change. This will extend to much needed structural social change. This process cannot be led by men from a misogynist theocracy who for centuries sadly […]

When I Was Small

A Tribute To My Parents thank you for hurting me thank you for hitting me thank you for neglecting me considering me but an annoyance a nuisance banished to my room in silence thank you for not seeing me as beautiful even though I had the most hopeful light green eyes and auburn curls never […]

Be The Lamp

“As soon as you  press the switch to turn on the light in the room that has been dark for ten thousand years, in that instant all the darkness is gone. Ten thousand years of darkness is dispelled in one moment.” -Tulku Urgyen Rinpoche it’s so very hard excruciating to look honestly rawly at the […]

Her heart spilled onto her cheek

All of her love All of her hope All of her longing All of her regret All of her fear for her child All of their shakiness Her heart popped loud and it’s wet life blood splashed onto her cheek not glamorous but real no more games no more fucking falsity she is raw she […]

The Outer, Inner and Secret Substratum

shadow mimics light the outer dry terrain persona of faux divinity the farthest crust of the self drilling deeper cracking the protective hard basalt base dark hidden misconduct guilt fear unprocessed anger volcanic reactivity is but dormant grief her small heart child emulates adulthood though the body is grown love her love him now the […]

Natural Gemstone Mala Prayer Beads

Dear friends- Did you know that I design Buddhist mala rosary prayer beads here in Boulder and Crestone Colorado? This company started in 2005 and we have over 500 different full size prayer beads and then also many gemstone bracelet malas. We are in the process of redesigning our website now,  going for a mod […]

Low Carb Chocolate Raspberry Muffins

Low Carb, High Protein Healthy Chocolate Raspberry Muffins/ Scones These are high protein low carb and highly nutritive, so we can feel good about offering these to our family. I’ve been experimenting with keto and paleo baking and found that I like to add organic white flour for 1/3 of the recipe. I know it’s […]

The Mirror of Blame

Regret… knows that all impurity seen in another reflects that which still lies dormant in oneself. Love is never a desire to possess. Love OPENS in SPACE completely even if~ unrequited. Inconsolable g r i e f fractures the heart beyond itself more vast more lucid than ever before gnown.   Photo by Amine M’Siouri […]

Golden Moon Milk Calming Tea

What is Golden Moon Milk Calming Tea? Feeling a bit overwhelmed? When I start to feel a bit anxious, I immediately take that as a sign to take it easy and go into self care. One of the very first things I do, is make Golden Milk, it’s essentially Turmeric and Ashwandangha powder tea. Golden […]

Trauma Bonds~ Healing from Narcissistic Abuse

Narcissistic/ Borderline Abuse is much more ubiquitous than we know. Any contact with unfeeling, abusive people can be some of the most heartbreaking and damaging relationships we ever encounter and without education, can literally destroy lives, careers, health and families. Every one of us, most likely at some stage of life, has had some contact […]

Vegetarian Loaded Nachos with Melted Cheddar

  Decadent and Healthy Vegetarian Loaded Nacho Casserole with Melted Cheddar Yield Makes 6 servings Ingredients ◦ 1 and 1/2 bags  (15 oz) of organic tortilla chips ◦ 1 can of organic vegetarian re-fried beans ◦ 1/4 teaspoon ground cumin or taco seasoning ◦ 1/4 cup sliced black olives ◦ 3 tablespoons jalapeño slices fresh […]

Twin Flames- Our Spiritual Consort Toward Ascension

The Tantric Consort: Awakening Through Relationship In our semi-apocalyptic time, it seems like many of us are going very deeply into introspection now. Very profound reflection is occurring on a global scale and our very species is on the precipice of survival. I believe that sometimes things have to get very dark before we have […]

Goodbye to mentor beat poet Diane Di Prima

If I could only write my raw heart སྙིང་ཐིག་ out uncensored, I’d blow the e-roof off of this metal box. There are one hundred thousand plus subterranean words still hidden by cast out firm mandate. Someday, I’ll bravely bust out and publish it all, just wait and see. We say goodbye to a dear beat […]

The Disclosure- Green to Black to Prism

apocalypse (n.) late 14c., “revelation, disclosure,” from Church Latin apocalypsis “revelation,” from Greek apokalyptein “uncover, disclose, reveal,” from apo “off, away from” (see apo-) + kalyptein “to cover, conceal,” from PIE root *kel- (1) “to cover, conceal, save.” The Christian end-of-the-world story is part of the revelation in John of Patmos’ book “Apokalypsis” (a title […]

Long Time Sun – Snatam Kaur

These Yogi Bhajan mantras sooth my soul when it hurts. All of my love with everything I ever was, everything I am and everything I ever will be to everyone, without exception. May the stars of our inner light together, shine so brightly to illuminate the darkening skies of this time. Long Time Sun – […]

White Scarf Withheld

a powerful wombman will bow only to a man’s real Divinity never his games nor his ego nor his attempts to control and sublimate a divine Man can craft solutions has healthy relationship skills accountability regret, forgiveness learning and growing a divine Wombman is whole never chases never pressures oh and if she did… regret […]

Keto Chocolate Walnut Brownies

Keto Chocolate Walnut Brownies How to make easy low carb keto brownies with paleo or almond flour. Prep Time 15 minutes Cook time 20 minutes Total Time 1 hour Yield 8 – 10 brownies Ingredients: • 1 cup paleo or almond flour • 1/4 cup cocoa powder or 80 grams of unsweetened chocolate • 2 […]

The evaluation at 7:30 plus one

the oil painting even crafted by the most exquisite hand with a gilded frame slightly tarnished hangs on a dim corner wall for 20 years unmoving is no longer ever again seen all that really matters now is that someone sees you the real you unadorned both vibrant and weathered every crack on the canvas […]

Repost: On Healthy Relationships by Matt Licata

“Embodiment to the cycle of rupture and repair is what allows the relationship to unfold, deepen, and disclose it’s secret essence.” In any close relationship (where we take the risk of allowing another to matter) we open ourselves to the two primary archetypal energies of abandonment and fusion. At a deep level there may always […]

The Four Powers to Purify All Negative Karma

“Drive All Blames Into Oneself” Humans, throughout time immemorial have been capable of committing the most cruelest crimes imaginable, some intentional, some based on self defense, emotional reaction or ignorance. However, there is always hope for regret and personal change if we really desire to do so. We cannot have contrition and heal negative karmic […]

Buffalo Cauliflower Hot Wings

Buffalo Cauliflower Hot Wings I think this is hands down, our family’s all time favorite vegetarian dinner. You can use butter and blue cheese dressing or substitute vegan options for these two. We make these for watching sports or for special occasions and it’s amazing how flavorful the cauliflower is with the hot red chili […]

Repost: The Guru Syndrome- When spirituality turns sour.

I wanted to repost this revealing article in full below because it exemplifies how a lot of us spiritual seekers came from broken families and/or addiction, and in an infantile way, were admittedly just looking for someone to re-parent us, find security in someone or something that we can take refuge in. The level of […]

Chai Spiced Paleo Scones with Berry Compote

Chai Spiced Paleo Scones with Berry Compote A best friend visited one summer morning and I made her some super easy and healthy Chai Spiced Paleo Scones: wheatless, sugarless, flour-less, high protein, and densely nutritive. Now I’m making them again for the fall, when a warm oven is welcome. They are perfect topped with spreadable […]

Comforting Spiced Kitchari Dal Bhat

This Comforting Spiced Kitchari Dal Bhat, is a modified version of the nutritive, cleansing Kitchari from the spiritual community of Shoshoni, and a shoutout to a lifetime yogi friend for his cooking instructions. Dal Bhat which means lentils and rice, is a staple the food served daily in Nepal and India. When you combine the […]

Roasted Root Vegetables with Baked Tofu

Welcome the fall and harvest! A perfect easy, healthy cookie sheet dinner with colorful oven roasted root vegetables and baked tofu. Vegan, gluten-free and kosher. Ingredients • 1 lb tofu sliced lengthwise • 1 large yam or sweet potato washed with skin on • 3/4 pounds brussel sprouts cut in half • 1/2 pound beets […]

How to Access Your Own Akashic Records Divination

Questions About Our Future I think every single person at some point in life is curious about their future and would love to have some clarity about what’s happening with them now. We often we stay stuck in not knowing what choices to make, how to proceed and what’s best for us. When we’re in […]

D.I.Y. Thieves Essential Oil and Cleaner

The History of Thieves Oil In times of plague, pandemic and now Covid, humans have relied on powerful essential oils to utilize their anti-bacterial qualities. The historic folklore of this famous Thieves remedy is quite intriguing. The use of thieves oil dates back to the year 1413, at the time, the notorious Bubonic Plague was […]

Repost: Malas for Prisoners~ The Mindfulness Peace Project

There was a lovely write-up about the Mindfulness Peace Project, an excellent meditation and wellness based organization that I’ve supported for years. See it here: https://www.buddhistmala.com/malas-for-prisoners-the-mindfulness-peace-project/ The original Facebook post: https://www.facebook.com/Ratna.Peace.Initiative/

Mediterranean Vegetarian Meat Loaf

As you all know, cutting out/ eating less meat is a great way to decrease our carbon footprint- this healthy, veggie infused semi-gourmet Mediterranean Vegetarian Meat Loaf comes out really well- do try it! Its great with mashed potatoes or mashed cauliflower and a roasted red pepper sauce as a condiment. 2 packs (800g) of […]

The Modern Ronin~ Real Spirituality vs. Religion

A Ronin is a Japanese Samurai Warrior that has lost his (or her) master and yet wanders boldly and bravely into their life. Many of us are taking a hard look at religion, a “religious path” and longing to make real personal, spiritual progress before this life is over. The problem is, that often people […]

Healthy Love Vs. Trauma Bonds

I think in these days of speed and trauma and a lot of us living in the Internet, I think we’ve learned maladaptive patterns of what it is to be in a healthy relationship. If we’ve grown up with a dysfunctional family, we may not even know what that is. Oftentimes love is just a […]

The Heart Pulls You To Bravery- My Thanks to Jared Polis

I just wanted to share this little moment of inspiration that became one of my most treasured repositories of strength. I was working for a congressman who wanted to leave his congressional seat and run for governor. This was Jared Polis, I worked for him two times, once for his reelection campaign as an incumbent […]

Real Spiritual Healing is Not Peaceful

I was a hopeful spiritual seeker and found the exotic and colorful, Tibetan Buddhism when I was 19. I recall when I started on this Buddhist path and went to Naropa, a Buddhist inspired university, they gave me all types of warnings, saying “think twice before you embark upon this path.” They said it was […]

Tsoknyi Rinpoche on Essence Love

“Don’t look outside outside happiness outside love is great we need it but without essence love… we might not be able to receive love because we are receiving from our hollowness we must receive love from the basis of this okay-ness we must give love from this wellbeing to others… Please expand this love… gradually […]

8 Signs You Are Dealing with Narcissistic Abuse

Video by: Melanie Tonia Evans The way to heal from relationships with these people is to firstly be aware of the dynamics. Narcissistic abuse is a very serious, insidious and destructive type of emotional and psychological harm. It can be done in a more subtle, covert way, so it can be very very confusing for […]

a diamond in the mirror

Real strength comes not from trying to run cower, or control our world with it’s perceived rough edges and barbs but rather like a mirror open, feeling, vulnerable not rejecting or chasing but reflecting what is. All is included in the path we don’t parse out good and evil friend or foe spiritual vs. worldly. […]

What If? A poem by Ganga White

What If? a poem by Ganga White What if our religion was each other? If our practice was our life? If prayer was our words? What if the Temple was the Earth? If forests were our church? If holy water—the rivers, lakes and oceans? What if meditation was our relationships? If the Teacher was life? […]

The wound is where the light enters- Trauma and Spirituality

  Spiritual Bypassing, Using Religion to Build Up Ego As westerners who chose to be involved with eastern religion, it’s safe to say, we were looking for something greater. Tibetan Buddhism took root in the United States during the 1960s where people were spiritual seekers and often involved in the psychedelic movement. A lot of […]

3 Secret Recipes for Tibetan Hot Sauce!

This hot sauce is amazingly flavorful and versatile. It’s like Tibetan Momo (dumpling) sauce, called Sepen, but it’s oil and chili based rather than tomato. The recipe is highly coveted. I begged for my Buddhist Shambhala friends to disclose the most profound secret teaching, my friend claimed that it’s the “most important” wisdom we hold. […]

Homemade Cocoa Butter Face Cream Recipe

I was amazed to discover the very best natural face cream and now use it every.single.day. I would say it’s no less than the fountain of youth. I was taught how to make this by my flower-child neighbor who uses only the best organic and well sourced ingredients that she buys in bulk from various […]

Inner Sun Never Goes Dark

If we have been betrayed and hurt so much so we see those that only want to love us as monsters mistrust fear of others the presumption that we would be harmed again of course we do some abuse struck so very deep and was unnatural we grew up with maladaptive patterns thank grace we […]

Simple Steps to Overcome Anxiety in Our Troubled Times

If I can quote Al Gore “every day when you turn on the news, it’s like a page from the Book of Revelations.” If we aren’t sad and anxious a bit now, there might be something dampened with our sensitivity! However, I’m living proof that the old that adage is true that “the darkest hour […]

How to Attain Enlightenment Practice Instructions

Somehow, I had the good fortune to practice meditation in the Tibetan Buddhist tradition which offers many yogic powerful methods of developing oneself on retreat. Many Tibetan teachers called Lamas offer a simple fruitional three step practice instruction. For instance, we have Tenzin Wangyal’s Stillness, Silence, and Spaciousness. Then we have Garab Dorje’s Three Words […]

Bhutanese Tri Color Pepper and Cheese Ema Datshi

Bhutanese (American) Tri Color Pepper and Cheese Ema Datshi Vegetarian (not vegan) main course~ with rice, the best one yet! I was in the Buddhist Kingdom of Bhutan for a week in 1992, and we camped out in a small remote town called Paro, it was amazing and utterly magical. Everyone should visit Bhutan someday […]

Book Review: In Love With the World by Mingyur Rinpoche

There’s an amazingly powerful, loving and gentle teacher you might have heard of named Mingyur Rinpoche. I am a close student of his father and brother and “grew up” with this family while I was living in Nepal for many years. I lived at his brother Tsoknyi Rinpoche’s monastery in Swayambhunath, and had the good […]

Reflections on: Pure Perception by Tulku Urgyen Rinpoche

About Tibetan Tantric Buddhism, Secrecy, Misconduct and Purity Here is a powerful repost of a teaching from my teacher Tulku Urgyen Rinpoche. Yes, we need to see the world as fundamentally pure, this is how it is and how we are. This however, can not be misconstrued for people using their spirituality to scare or […]

Take a lover who looks at you like maybe you are magic

To all of my emerging Goddess Sisters, settle for nothing less. This quote and poem is by Marty McConnell, often mistakenly attributed to Frida Kahlo, but either way, a wisdom channel from the collective depth of all women. Let us get stronger in the wake of those who ever hurt us. You can hear the […]


Narcissistic Virtue Signaling- Stoking Spiritual Ego

I’ve spent my entire life involved with Tibetan Buddhism, which essentially considers the teacher to be divine, superhuman and worthy of worship and reverence. They have a very highly socially encoded system with the religious tenets being that we have a graduated, spiritual evolutionary path, starting from a beginning meditator, up to an enlightened person. […]

A New Dharma Rising- Secular Dharma and Women’s Communities Growing

The Natural Dharma Fellowship Two noted western women, Lama Willa Miller, and Lama Elizabeth Monson who did the traditional Buddhist three year retreat and identify as survivors of Lama abuse/ misconduct have started their own ethics based community called the Natural Dharma Fellowship. I’m overjoyed to see these wisdom women rising, and voices *not silenced,* […]

Going Dairy Free? The Best Vegan Butters Reviewed

The Top Three Plant Based Butters I don’t know about you, but I for one can’t cook or barely survive for that matter, without butter. I tried a high fat Keto diet and it sent my bad cholesterol, triglycerides etc. through the roof. Now, I’m dairy free (except whey) and feeling great. I’ve been recently […]

Crying by Libby Kirkpatrick

This song was written and produced by my dear friend from Naropa, and it has stayed with me for a whole life. All about how we galz often get treated by the bad boyz we often love. When she first played it at Penny Lane Beat Poetry and Coffee House in Boulder Circa 1990, I […]

Home Made Keto Coffee Creamer

Part of the new wellness life is to not eat any dairy, sugar or any gluten, or at least much less. I’ve seen a lot of my friends live that way but never really jumped on that restrictive bandwagon until I became a wellness coach, and it feels…great! I am however permitted to have well […]

The Density of Light

a Sunflower never bows nor concedes to night’s oppressive falsity but with unending devotion all of her her seeds and petals blinding yellow open she will revere and drink the bright wisdom of Warmth Closeup Photo of Sunflowers Photo by Peter Fazekas from Pexels  

Phoenix Fire of a Lost Friend

Our dharma community had a dear friend and senior teacher take his life through self immolation, in tandem with the exposure of clergy abuse scandals. It was devastating, and we can’t imagine his pain. I wrote this for him, with tears and a full heart, the day after… For Bill & Us How could I […]

A Haiku for a friend who was departing-Fukuda Chiyo-ni

if only I could tiethe string of my kiteto the hem of your kimono   http://www.ahundredgourds.com/ahg44/exposition01.html Chiyo-ni: Woman Haiku Master Patricia Donegan, Yoshie Ishibashi, Chiyo-ni Tuttle Publishing, 1998 – Poetry – 280 pages ‘Chiyo-ni – Woman Haiku Master’ is a book in English on a woman haiku poet. Chiyo-ni (1703-1775), also known as Kaga no […]

New Wellness Video Freebies

Two new free wellness videos here: Here is a short, simple an exceedingly powerful, 3 step daily meditation practice, inspired by the transformative teachings of Tenzin Wangyal Rinpoche. https://dawnlhamo.com/spirit/ Enjoy a 5 minute guided meditation with affirmations to rediscover our inner strength. https://dawnlhamo.com/mind/

A Flower is Always Happy – Chögyam Trungpa

A flower is always happy because it is beautiful. Bees sing their song of loneliness and weep. A waterfall is busy hurrying to the ocean. A poet is blown by the wind. A friend without inside or outside And a rock that is not happy or sad Are watching the winter crescent moon Suffering from […]

Narcissistic Abuse: The Discard Phase

https://www.instagram.com/understandingthenarc/?hl=en Narcissistic abuse is a very serious type of emotional abuse that can take years to recover from, and if unseen, can do lifelong damage. The more we can understand about this type of covert, callous cruelty, the better we can protect ourselves, learn, heal and eventually help others. Repost: https://www.mindbodygreen.com/articles/how-narcissist-relationships-can-cause-trauma Image by Evgenij Yulkin […]

extrusion of the real

At a certain stagelater in lifeyou just want someonewho feels like home to see who you areto dig your trite beat poemsand your impassioned politicsyour mindand your heart just as it isjust as you arejust as they are what a rare gift to befinally seenfor once,before it’s over! Nothing needed tobe alteredimproved and to see […]

We Are Growing Up Spiritually

To my Dharma and spiritual seeker family who are now questioning Gurus, what is real and how to move forward. I love you all still some teachers and their minions hurt many, if not all of us men women and children in very deep ways. Spiritual criminality is the gravest of crimes. Our vows to […]

Seed of the Hidden Sun

Her eyes lift to the still sky blurred through vitreous fluid tears eye floaters she was told once to revere clear and refracted rainbow seeds wondering if there was any divinity left to hear her prayer beckoning only unresponsive silence searing steam of words leak through these electronic cracks great passion suggesting molten volcano eruption […]

Limerence of Tantra

I sought solace in you from a barbarian family you assured refuge and a warm white blanket of trust and it has been revealed that you just wanted to sleep with me callously for your pleasure extract my devotion money and very identity a lifetime of indentured servitude you mandated that I put you above […]

Ode to Kerouac, Burroughs and Ginsberg

https://allthatsinteresting.com/beatniks-new-york#1 Lineage fathers, I supplicate your sordid AH divinity. ཨ   I had the privilege of meeting Burroughs at the Naropa Institute in the early 90’s, I recall him being very stoic, and indeed no one could prevent him from smoking inside. He smoked slowly intentionally, and the oddly disturbing and reverent imprint of him, […]

Firefly Dance~ To hate the emergence of love

banging behind a screen trapped they had heard all of this before insipid psycho-theory but now knew in the most quiet reticent alone instinct of knowing the only real way out was a tiny tear in the fabric through the distant light of liberation almost perceptible she saw it all It all~ and knew the […]

You May Find Yourself

the colorful forms of exile the entrapment of marriage vows religion vows that we used to procure safety identity security escape anchored ground the suppressive cocoon like cellular elements of our very lives meaningless jobs perfunctory rituals even our children owned by everyone other than ourselves felt all now like an unwelcome dream a prison […]

An Homage to Simone

you don’t have to be wealthy beautiful know every mudra and mantra nor current event nor elucidate many sonnets from Blake and Keats or even Sartre you don’t even have to be kind nor even sane for that matter all that I desire now left in this world is when I speak is for you […]

she script~ the pen that writes itself

petals of pinecones opened by thunder struck forest fire ending of time renewing seed in center of tongue spits blessings dense brocade in space crafts nebulas to noses eternally no origin point a pineapple dries itself in the desert his cheek on mine no more bosom center block i can i know one day pecha […]

iconoclast of true spirituality

if we listen inside to the Tao’s wholesome truth we can no longer support nor uphold any of the architectural tenets of faux religion or thought that still maintain a profoundly dark, rotting dystopian underbelly of hurting others lest we continue in complicity the dry soil must be overturned fertilized with transparent light genuine golden […]

Wild Geese by Mary Oliver

    You do not have to be good.You do not have to walk on your kneesfor a hundred miles through the desert, repenting.You only have to let the soft animal of your bodylove what it loves.   Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.Meanwhile the world goes on.Meanwhile the sun […]


Cult-ure vs. Cults

Excerpts and paraphrases from an open letter to Rigpa and Shambhala: We might lose almost everything after a very short time if we don’t stop this. I’m just wondering if there’s any possible way to have a global clarification of what’s been happening to us. I have done extensive research and I no longer concur […]

Words of my (mostly) Perfect Teacher

“We have to connect with and find strength in our own Buddha Nature,This is not copyrighted by any Lama or Buddha or BodhisattvaThere are many great things within us and in our world,qualities of warmth, wisdom even the Buddha’s monksfrom the onset, had misconduct here and theredon’t fixate and reify the negative, impure things relax […]

To Improve, Not Negotiable

my blonde daughter’s pale white cheekthe morning snowflakes melt in her hairso few years with us,she anticipates a raresnow day with joy green blue planetgoes silentwill we becometo spacea mere memoryof what once was remembered byno onemetal satellite waste in orbitcircles eternallya voyager time capsulerecordinga testament to ushaving once been herenow silent earth dry crusted […]

Final Words of Chatral Rinpoche- The Future of Buddhism

Before His Holiness Chatral Rinpoche passed away (at age between 103 -105 years), a disciple asked him, “How will the rise and fall of the Dharma be like in the future?” Chatral Rinpoche replied, “Support and take refuge in those spiritual masters who focus their practice in solitary retreat. Before one attains enlightenment, one should […]

Love Letter to the Sakyong

We were asked today if we wanted to continue to have “samaya” a sacred unbreakable bond commitment to the spiritual guru, Sakyong Mipham Rinpoche, head of a large Tibetan Buddhist Community, Shambhala. He was accused of harming some of his Buddhist students and has apologized, and we are all trying to forge a way forward. […]

Longing to Connect… in the Age of the Cyber-Apocalypse

  New Love, elation, hope You see the face of the beloved in your partner Everyone and everything seems pure brighter, more sensuous and alive your being body, speech and mind are wide open warmth radiates~ but it happens very quickly, undetectably, insidiously at first subtle and then overt… fear that you will lose them […]


pale patch of rainbowpeers out from storm clouds there is never hopesince all will fade~ but there aremoments ofgrace

Musings from Retreat: to do or die

Alone intentionally I eat dhal-bhat in silence and shocked by how sweet a little cut carrot really is and the swirl of red hot sauce mixed with yogurt blended delightfully on a bright yellow plate depression can only come when you are not awake to the blazing senses of your world I feel whole but […]

Musings from Retreat- Let Me Feel Alive Again

Unplug me from your life draining mediaLet me feel the sun on coconut oiled skinand the scent of tangerinesLet me breathe all of the pain out of every poreLet me see the glistening sparkle color worldLet my eyes shine againLet me feel still and listen to the crows and cricketsLet me feel cool water as […]

For All of My Kind Teachers

Even though we’ve all been recently reevaluating our relationship with spiritual teachers and after the #metoo movement, there’s been a lot of scandals exposed, I wanted to share my appreciation for my Dharma teachers to whom I’ve devoted most of my adult life to, and them to us. I understand that there are a lot […]

No Exit

All that she createdwas a lavishprison that she could onlypeerout into theworld from. He reminded herof thefreedomthat she once knew. —————— Title “No Exit” borrowed from screenplayby Jean-Paul Sartre, retitled as “Sinners Go to Hell,” 1962 English adaptation of Jean Paul Sartre’s “Huis Clos” (No Exit / In Camera)   image of SARTRE and SIMONE […]


Without Her~ even He cannot manifest. ________________________________ http://www.khandro.net/objects_staff_trident.htm Staff of the Consort Images of Guru Rinpoche’s most famous consort, Yeshe Tsogyel, depict her also with a khatvanga.  Hers is topped with a vajra.  Standing for the presence of Padmasambhava, it indicates her inseparability from him.

Electric Heroin

Electric Heroin Flickering face fixation, our scrumptious nouveau e-opiate. This very act of trying to remedy our aloneness, creates it. Delirium tremor detox shaking hand resisting the apple’s siren call. Unplug from the mainline, retract long, deep breaths Alone… No more. Our etymological forefathers were very wise- Settling, simple, all is even now~ Al-one.

Her Soliloquy

She briskly wakes me Every morning at 4:30am Before the sun, all seems silent The mind’s eye sees the electric multicolored oscillating phantasmagoria of space Roaring, tinnitus speaks a warm soliloquy mother’s arms of unending space ultimately comforting our true face anticipating the delicious creation of another illusory day.   photo: Soap Bubbles in sunlight […]


One small apperceptive beingComes into a life from nothingFrom parents generating warmthtwo hands take away the coldso for one moment they do not feel alone Family gives the illusion of comfort and securitylamenting to conceal the vacuitytaking on more and more work to sustainso many forms, so muchand at the end, after so many tears […]